“I want to wake up where you are”
Goo Goo Dolls – Slide
I don’t want to wake a single morning without you beside me.
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12:00AM I’m still awake.
12:01AM You’re in my head.
12:02AM I think of your eyes.
12:03AM I smile.
12:04AM I try to sleep again.
12:20AM You’re still in my head.
12:30AM I can’t get you out of my head.
12:40AM I still can’t sleep.
1:00AM I think of your lips.
1:30AM I’m tired.
2:00AM You. You.You.
3:00AM You’re still in my head
4:00AM You’re in my heart.
5:00AM I finally fall asleep.
6:00AM My alarm goes off… time to get up.
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I have loved you for years. It’s a long time to really like somebody – to have my heart balloon every time you email me, to secretly smile every time you text me, to laugh at all your [bad] jokes. A long time to love your scruffy beard, to love the way your eyes crinkle when you smile, to love the way your presence makes me feel safe. You are perfect for me. You have captivated my heart, mind and body. I had not thought it was possible for me to love someone this much. To feel this way. Like my heart will explode. Like I’m on the edge of going crazy when I’m not with you. To crave your touches. To be so desperate for your company. I am driven by love… for you.
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I love being held. I love when I am in your arms. I know its selfish but that is what I love. I love waking up to you and smiling and having you smile back. I love you wrapping your arms around me and then falling right back asleep.
I love it when you walk in the airport, seeing you notice me and then seeing you smile. I love it when you walk over to me, wrap me in a big hug and say hi. We act like we haven’t seen each other in ages. That is a great feeling.
Feeling the rush of your lips trailing down my body, covering every spot of skin. Giving in to you, giving you what we both want. Feeling like one. Knowing our love will not fade. Knowing that I make you happy.
The happy moments, the secret smiles. Going out with my children and saying something they don’t get, but you give me that look that tells me you got it and you found it funny. You telling me how beautiful I am in front of my kids. Them looking at us and seeing how much we adore each other. The feeling of pride when my daughter tells me she is happy her mother has found someone that makes her so happy.
I love you!
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You are miles away from me this Valentine’s Day. I miss you but I am content just to sit here with memories of you, recent and more distant. I’d given up on finding a love like ours until you came back into my life. The unexpected always strikes out of the blue, in our case it started with that simple, little birthday wish … fate some would say.
A whirlwind of experiences has swept through our lives over the past several months… reconnecting through emails and telephone calls; you flying half way across this vast country just to spend a few days with me; that first visit in SJ when you asked me once again, Who am I? and I knew just what you meant; the fortune cookies; our engagement and last month our wedding. We truly rock each other’s world and to think our journey is just beginning.
I want you to know that even though I say I love you a lot, the feelings behind the words never change. Whether I say it once or say it a million times, I love you just the same every time and always will from now and for the rest of our lives.
Happy Valentine’s Day … my man, my husband, my M. I love you!
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Where are you my husband? You don’t have to answer as I already know … not close enough.
You are so far away from me. There’s this distance … miles and time zones. Why is this so? It doesn’t have to be … two weeks is all I need and I can be there … with you.
I love you so very much and I miss you more each day.
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I’m sitting here now, writing this and missing you. It’s a constant longing that never goes away. I lie in bed at night wishing you were here. I only want to be in your arms. I wish I could see you if only for 5 minutes.
I want you here … I need you here. Now and forever.
But instead I am left alone, trapped in this hole… missing you.
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“…all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me”
3 Doors Down – Here Without You
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The hardships of distance and time are teaching me to be humble and patient. I never knew I possessed these virtues. Endurance and resilience are not inherent traits in my character. I often gave up too soon when the road ahead looked tough. I would choose a milder slope, a more traveled path perhaps. I sat on the sidelines and watched the world goes by … then you came back into my life.
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