Happy 9th Anniversary

We’ve been through many ups and downs in our relationship. Today on our anniversary I want to express how thankful I am that we’ve stayed together through it all. The best is yet to come!

 

Because I’m a Klutz

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Loving someone is being the steady hand to pick them up when they fall over, cleaning their scrapes and cuts out, and making sure no permanent damage was done. And giving them the confidence to raise their head high and walk boldly on, without worrying who might’ve seen them tumble.

Here’s a Tip

Here's a Tip

Even the nicest of people have their limits. Don’t push them too far and don’t try to reach those limits, because the nicest people can also be the scariest assholes once they’ve had enough.

Romance On the Road

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I want to go on a road trip. Just you and me. The highway, the radio, the blue sky, the back roads, and windows down. We will talk about everything and nothing. We will make memories we will never forget. Just you and me.

The Great Adventure

This blog started out as Love Letters Across the Miles. After a rough few years we are ready to put the past behind us. That chapter is closed and I turn the page in my life’s book, ready to begin a new chapter.

My husband and I decided to quit our jobs, rent out our house and move to Mexico for a year. My husband, myself and 2 cats are leaving in less than two weeks. After the year is up we may decide to stay in Mexico or travel on to another destination. I have decided to write about my journey and my new life adventure.

We have given most of our clothes to the local homeless shelter, sold or junked most of our possessions, except for a few totes of important things that I have put into storage, and sold 2 out of 3 vehicles. Travel documents are purchased, house is almost empty except for furnishings (I am renting the house furnished). I am excited.

 

 

Respect Her

Emotions

When you are in love with a woman, you should never accuse her of being overly emotional. You should never ask her if she is on her period when she expresses hurt or anger. You should never act like she is bothering you with her feelings.

When you accuse her of overreacting, it sounds like you don’t want to hear about her problems. It sounds like you are making excuses so you don’t have to have a serious conversation with her. It sounds like you are invalidating her feelings because you have a completely different opinion you value more than hers.

If you think she is overreacting, you probably aren’t looking at the situation from her point of view. You might be hearing what she is saying but you are not listening closely enough.

Even if you understand her side of the story and still believe she is overreacting, you should never tell her how to feel. If you use phrases like calm down and it’s not that big of a deal then you are going to chase her away.

Even worse, she might stick around, but she will close herself off. She will raise her guard. She will stop telling you how she feels because she will worry you are going to judge her again.

If you hate it when she says she is fine when it is clear something has been bothering her, then you cannot minimize her emotions when she is vulnerable with you. You cannot brush away her complaints. You cannot treat her emotions like a joke.

If you act like she does not have the right to be upset or angry or excited, then fine is all you are ever going to get from her. She is never going to give you any details. She is going to deal with the pain on her own.

You never want your person to feel this way. You want her to feel like she can come to you with any problems. You want to be her shoulder to cry on. You want to be the one she runs to with good news and bad news.

You don’t want her to purposely hide things from you in fear of coming on too strong. You don’t want her to censor herself around you to avoid fights. You don’t want her to bottle up her emotions because she thinks that is what you want her to do.

If you are in love with her, then you will want her to express her emotions. You will want her to open up to you. You will want her to wear her heart on her sleeve.

When you are in love with a woman, you will not tell her how to feel. You will not act like she is being silly or psycho for feeling the way she feels. You will respect her emotions. You will remind her they are valid.

Shark Tank

Shark Tank

You have to love someone in the cracks between the big moments. You have to grab their hand when you’re sitting on the couch watching Shark Tank together and you have to give them a little knowing look that says, “I see you and I love you here in the mundane moments of our life.”

What I Want

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Good Great sex is a plus but … I want to feel beautiful, wanted, loved and appreciated. I want to be “in love.” I want a mutual understanding that we are on a mission to keep love alove. I want to never go to bed angry. I want conversations, communication, fun and unconditional love.

 

Always

Always

I love you. After all this time. I still love you. It’s always been you. It was you yesterday. It was you today. It will be you tomorrow. And for the rest of my life. It will be you. I love you.

The Highs & Lows

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Loving someone is letting them dump all their shit on you anytime they need to. Not because you’re an emotional punching bag, but because you both silently agreed to be there for one another, through the highs and the lows. It’s about being stronger than usual when your partner is feeling a little fragile, and doing whatever you need to pull them through this turbulent moment. So it doesn’t matter where you are or what’s going on, you show up for your person because you promised that you would.

 

Fix the Broken Relatioship

Fix itDon’t break up. Fix the problem. This is why there are so many failed relationships… it’s too easy to just give up.

Start the romance again. Go on dates again. Work on winning each other over again.

If you love each other, then breaking up is not the answer.

 

Forgiveness

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Loving someone is about letting go of what happened in the past, and living fully in today. Forgiving each other for what you said or didn’t say, for old wounds and mindless mistakes. Because you know that clinging on will only add fuel to rage and fury – neither of which belong in a space of love.

Every Day Love

Everyday Love

Loving someone is being grateful for them every damn day. Even those days where your world is turning upside down, inside out, and it leaves your head spinning. Especially on those days. Because you get to go home to this person and wake up to another sunrise with them.

Do you have any idea how many people wish they could have that too? So remember to hug them, to kiss them, and to tell them they are loved, often.

All My Love

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“I Love you” means I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times.

It’s Hard To Forgive

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Forgiveness isn’t easy. Losing someone’s trust can take as little as half a second, but gaining it back takes time. Forgiving is a lengthy process. No matter how bad you want the whole thing to be over and for everything to go back to normal, it won’t for a while. You’ll always find the thought, the memory, hidden in your mind in the most obvious place, waiting for the right time to remind you that your heart is broken and that your attempt at a smile doesn’t hide it well enough. It’s hard to forgive someone you gave everything to because you know they’ll treat it with recklessness. They’ve done it before.

Moving On

Moving On

You can’t start the next chapter of life if you keep re-reading the last one.

 

I Lived to Tell the Tale

Awesome

Sweet child, all your worst fears were realized, and yet you lived through it, lived to tell the tale, now with drier eyes and a steady voice

How can you not see that as a superpower, as proof of your divine strength?

 

You Broke Me

You Broke Me

I am now the girl with an imperfectly mended heart. I am now the girl who is not as broken anymore. I am now the girl who knows what forgiveness is. I am now the girl who forgives you.

Forgive

Forgiveness

Forgive anyone who has caused you pain or harm. Keep in mind that forgiveness is not for others. It is for you.

Forgiving is not forgetting. It is remembering without anger. It frees up your power, heals your body, mind, and spirit.

Forgiveness opens up a pathway to a new place of peace where you can persit despite what has happened to you.

Keep Going

Keep GoingNo matter how stuck you feel.

No matter how bad things are right now.

No matter how many days you’ve spent crying.

No matter how hopeless and depressed you feel.

No matter how many days you’ve spent wishing things were different.

I promise you won’t feel this way forever.

Keep going.

 

 

I Found Inner Strength

Being Strong

Being strong is love someone in silence. To radiate happiness when we are unhappy. To forgive someone who does not deserve forgiveness. To stay calm in moments of despair. To show joy when we don’t feel it. To smile when you want to cry. To make someone happy when our own heart is broken. To be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish. To comfort when we need to be comforted. And to have faith when sometimes we no longer believe.

Love Is… Sticking Together

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I want us to last. I didn’t want a few amazing years and then for it to be over in a flash.

I don’t want to experience the feeling of hurt, confusion, or disappointment again.

No matter what we run into and no matter how hard things get, I want us to stick together.

 

 

Perfect Love

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A perfect reliationship isn’t actually perfect at all, it consists of two people who NEVER give up on each other despite any hurt or pain.

Just Breathe

Just Breathe

I know I’ll be okay and that eventually everything will work out. I know that what’s meant for me will happen, I know …. But I just need a minute or two to pull myself together … Because sometimes the shit life throws at me gets heavy. That’s all…

💔

To Love Someone

Day By Day

To love someone, and I mean really love someone, is to love them on the hardest of days. When the odds are stacked against you. When neither of you is in your finest hour.

I Forgive You

I Forgive You

I forgive you, I really do. I am releasing this into the universe, surrendering it all because carrying this heaviness and hurt is a poison that is slowly killing me. I’m making the choice to forgive you because I need peace in my heart.

I forgive you for not loving me the way I wanted you to, the way you told me you would in the beginning. I forgive you for not being the man I thought you were, the man you pretended to be. I forgive you for hurting me. I forgive you for not wanting me the way I wanted you. I forgive you for all these feelings of unworthiness you brought to my doorstep and left for me to clean up. (It’s going to take a long time to clean up this mess.)

I forgive you breaking my tender heart and making me feel like nothing special. I forgive you for the tears I cried, for this empty feeling in my heart. I forgive you for not being man enough to talk to me and tell me how you felt.  I forgive you for not thinking enough of me or our time together to tell me the truth.

As hard as it is, I forgive you for it all.

Forgive

Forgive

It took me a long time to understand what it means to forgive someone.

I always wondered how I could forgive someone who chose to hurt me. But after a lot of soul searching, I realized that forgiveness isn’t about accepting or excusing their behaviour…. it’s about letting it go and preventing their behaviour from destroying me heart.

Revenge

Revenge

The best revenge is no revenge. Move on, be happy.

Just Talk

Be Vocal, Not Silent

I respect a person who is vocal.

Tell me why you’re into me. Tell me why I pissed you off and tell me how I can fix it.

Tell me everything. Talk.

 

Silence

Marry someone who will sit down with you and say “let’s fix this” instead of being a child and ignoring you because they’re mad.

 

Happy 8th Anniversary

The past year has been really rough on our marriage, I honestly didn’t think we’d make it to #8. But we did, we made it past the seven-year itch. Things are looking better for this year.

I’m Still Here

Strength

I’m still healing from heartbreak but I have chosen to stay. There is strength in staying, in living in the uncomfortable space that is all around me. I have chosen to stay and show up for myself instead of chasing the next thrill of adventure to numb the pain of heartbreak. I have chosen to find strength in patience. It still hurts, I’m still uncomfortable, I’m slowly accepting things for what they are instead of letting go.

I’m still raw, but I’m also still here.

Relationships Aren’t Easy

Relationships ARen't Easy

If you want to be with someone, you have to be mature enough to stick around when things get tough. Relationships aren’t always easy.

Tiny Little Pieces

 

Tiny Little Pieces

You could break my heart into tiny little pieces and I’d still pick them up and put them back in your hand.

(Hard to find someone like that, right?)

💔

 

Sit & Think

Sit & Think

Have you ever just sat and thought, “Fuck, I’ve been through a lot of shit.”

Why I Stayed

Why I Stayed

I stayed because I know, that somewhere, underneath the anger and hatred I’m feeling at the moment, beneath that shield of bitterness and disappointments. I know, he’s still there. That man that I love and adore. The one who first made me believe that this is all worth fighting for. I have faith, that someday, he will eventually be revived. When he’s ready to continue this adventure that we started together. I know someday, his heart will be awakened and he’ll continue our journey to fight for our love that is worth fighting for. I have faith that someday, he’ll come back… I will hear him tell me those three words again. And I will believe him.

This is the reason why I stayed.

You Were Lost

Quotes A relationship is like a house. When a light bulb burns out you do not go and buy a new house, you fix the light bulb.-m

It’s so easy to love someone when things are perfect and everything’s wonderful. But to love someone when things are difficult, when they’re not being perfect, when they’re messing up, flaws are seen, mistakes are made – I think that’s what really allows you to see how much love is really there.

Anyone can love someone who is doing and saying all the right things but to love someone when they are lost, when you’re willing to stand by them no matter how challenging or difficult things may be, I think that kind of love is real.

 

 

Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes I think about when we used to talk. We’d talk about dreams and fears and how real change could happen with a little time. But now more than a little time has gone by and now we don’t talk anymore. I try to remember all the things I wanted then. And all the things I want now and what’s different and what’s the same. I sometimes miss that dreaming we would do when we still talking. Before the avalanche came down and everything changed. When I believed in you and thought you believed in me.

Because even if things were wrong then and I knew about it, I didn’t yet know the full extent. I couldn’t possibly have. And even if I was without that knowledge, ignorant me was happy with the dreaming. She was happy with the talking. Sometimes those are the things we’re willing to trade. Talking instead of silence. Dysfunction instead of truth. Dreaming instead of leaving. A happy me for a happier you.

You can’t pick and choose the things you want in a person, but if I could, I’d pick the you who would let me rest my head on his chest and tell me the things he wanted to do.

Love Story

I wanted to live happily ever after. I wanted to cook breakfast with you in the mornings and fall asleep with you in the evenings. I wanted to see what you looked like with grey hair. I had so much more planned for us and I feel like our love story ended prematurely.

But maybe we can still do those things. Maybe our story hasn’t officially ended yet.

Oh Happy Day!!!

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Today I heard some news that made me want to jump with joy … they are having a baby. I think this is the beginning of the end of my heartache.

My heart feels light for a change. The weight of the stress has been lifted and I can breathe a sigh of relief.

I really hope we can get back on track together now. I really do. It will never be the same as it once was – I was hurt too deeply – but I am so ready to move on from this maelstrom you’ve caused me over the past couple of years.

Life’s looking up!

 

I Stopped Caring

I Stopped Caring

And finally I stopped caring. I stopped wondering what you were doing. I stopped wondering what you were saying. I just really don’t care anymore. And honestly, it’s quite freeing.

 

 

It Shatters You

It Shatteres You

And maybe it doesn’t make sense, maybe your gut is telling you otherwise, maybe your heart is aching and maybe you can’t stand losing it. You can’t let the world win. You just can’t let it go because it was everything you wanted and everything you wished for.

It shatters you. But because you want it so much, you want to make it right, you want to stand tall against the world and make it happen.

So you keep trying and you keep giving even if you’re getting nothing in return.

💔

Worthless

Worthless

I needed you and you weren’t there. I needed you and you made me feel like I wasn’t good enough. I needed you and you didn’t love me, oh you said you did but your actions told me a different story. I needed you and you acted like I didn’t exist. I needed you and you broke me.

💔

Destruction

Destruction

I watched you destroy everything we had and I didn’t say a word because… I still loved you.

💔

I’m Confused

Confusion

Why can’t you just tell me what you feel, because how you act is confusing me.

💔

Can’t Let Love Go

Let It Go

I wish I could stop playing through scenarios of what could have been and where it all went wrong. I wish I could just move on. I wish I could just let go of you, of us.

But, in this moment, wishing for things is all there is, because reality is that in this space is where I am, I still love you.

I still wonder what made you give up, and I still resent fear for digging its claws in you and us.

💔

A Realtionship Means…

Realtionships

A relationship means that you come thogether to make each other better.

Beleive in each other. Suport each other. Build each other.

Be their peace, not their problem.

 

 

Through It All

through it all

I stayed with you through all the bullshit because I was torn between not givin up on the person I loved and coming to term with the fact that the person I loved no longer existed inside the body I was staring at everyday. And I don’t give a fuck what anyone says … that is really difficult. But, true love stays, even when things get difficult.

💔

 

Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes, when I say I’m okay, I want you to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say, “I know you’re not.”

I Never Agreed to Share Your Heart

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I don’t want a relationship where I am suspicious of you. I don’t want to watch you flip your phone upside down when I enter the room and add a passcode just in case you leave it behind when you run to the bathroom. I don’t want to wonder who you are texting. I don’t want to be on the constant lookout for signs you are cheating.

I don’t want to deal with the baggage that comes with you cheating on me. I don’t want to feel disrespected by someone who is supposed to love me.

I would rather have you do the mature, adult thing and leave me before you come close to acting unfaithful. I would rather have you rip the Bandaid off right this second than continue to be with me while flirting with another behind my back.

I never signed up for an open relationship. I never agreed to share your heart. If you cannot give me every single sliver, then take the entire thing away. I would rather watch you leave than have you sit beside me wishing you were gone.

I should be enough for you. You should not be looking for comfort outside from me. You don’t get to be in a relationship on days off while acting single at work. You get to choose one or the other. You have to make a decision — and it should not be a difficult one.

Whether you leave me or cheat on me, you are going to hurt me, so you might as well do it in the most respectful way possible. You might as well handle my heart gently by telling me it is over.

I would rather have you leave me than cheat on me. I would rather have you break my heart the old fashioned way than pretend you care about me when you are already invested in someone else.

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